Next time,

when you're feeling jelous or having heartaches cuz of me layaning other girls,
don't be upset about it.
when i care bout how you felt even we're not attatch,
i distance myself away from other girls.
when the girls nak kenal2 and all, i told you im attatch to who. ?
Farhanah.
pathetic me , i know. its just that i don't like to see that someone i love dearly get heartaches over this kind of things.
what i know is that , you still does the things that will make me jelous and all.
nevermind , we're seperated right? nothing much that i can do.

maybe i should just move on with my life huh .
i should get back to the old me, mixing with the opp gender, having fun, going out with my friends and all.
if you can, why can't i?

when i bring this up to you, what happen?
we will fight/argue/quarrel again.
no point right?

so if you're having the good life, maybe i should too.
saying the word i love you, saying you still have the feelings to me, its just words.
Actions do speak louder than words , dear. =)
Would you like if i say i love you many times but behind your back i go out with other girls... layaning them.. be it msg/msn/facebook/meet-up and all . does it make sense? no right?
Who wants their love ones to get hurt ?
I Understand you're feelings . Im not saying im a good guy. Im not.
The foul words i throw at you and your friends , its because of anger right at that point of time? Nevermind if mama and your fam hates me. That was my mistake.
Everytime when we're attatch, i know i asked for breakups here and there. Because of what? Jelousy. I admit. Im a jelous guy . You won't like it if i go out with a girl which i claim a friend of mine. I know you're a very bubbly girl. Can get along real well with the guys. But if you love me, you'll know your distance right?

There are limits. Asking guy to send you home? Going back with ure guy friend? SMSing with some guy ? Facebook - private msging with another guy? To you maybe you think its a small matter. But to me, it shows that you don't care bout my feelings.
Remember after we argue BIG TIME, you dropped ure hp and it got spoilt? I Meet you early in the morning before work to lend u my phone, what did i get? You read my msg and you say you no need use my hp, u're friend wants to lend you. You know how i felt? Nvm. So after work i had to quickly get the phone from you? Yep.

If i don't show my attitude when u do such things it simply shows that i dont even give a dam about you right? I Don't think you see it. But nevermind .

To NurFarhanah,
It has been almost 2 years we're still in contact, it was really really meaningful and joyous feeling. You're a great girlfriend any guy would want to have . You're personality, you're a child yourself, all those punching pinching kicking. Well kept memories. The day we were at ecp, that was the memorable as so as when we were at Sentosa. The love i have for you never stop . But now, im unsure . Wishing you all the best in life . Takecare. 191008 will still be remembered.
It really was a rollercoaster ride for us right? Well there are best and the worst times =)
Every relationship isnt perfect, its about understanding and caring for one another's feelings. =)

Lastly, i wanna apologise for all this things.
-Not being the best boyfriend for you
-Causing you heartaches cuz of my attitude and jelousy
-Not understandable/reasonable
-Not being a perfect guy
-Not supportive
-Giving false hope/empty promises
-My presence in your life.
To sum it all up. Im sorry for everything .

All the best in your future endeavours. Take care. You'll be remembered.

Labels: Good old times.